In my weakness

In my weakness

In my weakness
is His strength
fallen
He picks me

up
broken
He mends my
hurt
In my nothingness
is His all...
In my sorrow..
is His joy..
In my failure..
is His victory..
In my pain..
is His balm..
In the brokeness
of my spirit..
the completeness
of His Son
In the hollowness
of my life..
the hallowedness
of my Lord..
in the sins
of this sinner
the forgiveness
of my God...
In my weakness
He is Lord..

Beyond no treatment for those on that final walk..

Beyond No Treatment Written for those on that final walk

It's an art living between the rain drops in the moment with a person who has just found out there is no more treatment. I never quit believing that Mike would beat the odds yet I prepared for the worst. However, in our home .. there was no talk of doom and gloom.. the rule was leave the medical stuff outside the door... this was when we were told he had six months to live... the first month was horrible as he laid around in self pity... till finally well, I told him get his butt up ... and live... and he laughed at me and said "damn,girl" then ok... and off we went through the next 3 1/2 months. At night while I worked he pumped out the messages... love u2 was the most frequent...of course that was after I had to give him  "text" lessons... but he was learning.. laughing.. and loving... in the midst of the rest... the inevitable.. every morning I would pray as I cracked open the front door that he would be alive and every morning he would holler out... I'm still alive... I would sigh a deep breath... and leave the uncertainty at the door... finally  one day... I cracked open the door... and there was no answer.. we were going to the doctor for a paracentisis procedure to remove fluid... I raced to his room...his eyes told it all... I can't get up...he said.. even then his eyes locked with mine... we knew... he knew... it was only 24 hours.. pneumonia, kidney failure, and blood pressure crashed... he fought with the mask they had on him... I asked the doctor if it could be removed safely ... it was simply oxygen not a tube... they took it off... and Mike insisted on it being taken off... his heart crashed...pulse slowed... breathing followed...I had 1 second to tell this man I loved he was dying... I had another to tell him... I love you and with his last breath.. his eyes locked on mine he said "love u 2"  the secret was the walk... the secret was for those moments between his despair and that last love u 2 there was quality of life... he loved...laughed.. and lived in the moment... We were blessed to share the moments of our lives...

Forgiveness

Forgiveness

The pain of learning of a person's falsehoods..
hurts beyond belief..
all the signposts in one's life..
change in a split second..

everything turns topsturvy..
what was black
is now white..
and even God...
seems to be the
Devil...
hope is lost
anger grips one..
the future seems dark...
the pathway too long...

In the midst
of this confusion,
we lose our way..
the shock of the moment..
overrides the peace and joy
we have had in our Christian walk..
serenity and peace eludes us..
our faith is tested to the limit...

until we stop...
and return to the basics..
pray and ask God's guidance..
and remember that
we too are forgiven...
and on our knees...
wer find the strenth and courage
for the rough road ahead...
for we too are forgiven...

Through it all
God always has us...

Press Forward

Press Forward

When all others
naysayers...
doomsday predictors..
push you down..

pull you back...
bring upyour past
your inadequacies..
faults...
sins..
discretions..

Look forward
Press forward..
Through His Son
God removes you from
the past
the sin..
your faults..
and replaces...
joy
peace.
that passeth all
understanding....

Press Foward...
Believe in the unseen
possiblities
speak the vision
the Lord has laid on you heart...
Press Forward...
He Careth For you!!
In all places
all times...
all situations..

In all that I am

In all that I am

In all that I am,
He is my joy;

In all my dreams,
He is my vision;

In all my hopes,
He is my thought;

In all my ways,
He is my guide;

In all my heart,
He is my love;

In my morning,
He is my sunshine;

In my night,
He is my prayer

In my life,
He is Lord!!

My Rock, My Salvation!!

The body of Christ

My church is the body of Christ..

I wasn't called to sit in the church...
I was called to minister..
to the lost, lonely, loveless
to the homeless, hopeless, humans..

my ministry...
was given by the Lord..
my seminary..
is my bible..

and my walk is the Lord's...

I'm called to a street ministry..

to the man behind the dumpster
the newly released prisoner..
vet in the street...

that's where the Lord leads me to serve..


to the ones left behind...
overlooked...
not the homeless who live in shelters..
but those on the street...

anyways...

thanks Lord..

I didn't ask for it..
but here I am Lord

use me Lord..

My Lord

Wherein lies my heart
oh Lord
threrein you lie
secretly
hidden...
savored
moments
quietude
holy
of
holies

My God
My Rock
My Salvation...


My Lord

From Broken to Joy

From Broken to Joy

June 29, 2014 at 6:47pm

I gained a voice in the affairs of my life…
After childhood abuse…
I learned to fight
To step up..
Never back down..

That changed one day
When..
Three months  pregnant..
Sick.. exhausted from fighting..
Standing my ground..
Very ill..
On the verge ..
Of losing my  lil one..
Who was clinging to life.
By a thread..
I was ..
Bleeding.. cramping..
World on twirl and tilt..


I hit the floor..
Again.. and again..
I don’t remember
The offense..
That time..
However,
This time..
I couldn’t get up..
Laid there for hours..
Forgotten..
Laid there…
Broken..
Dispirited..
Abused..
And knew..
I could not do this again.
So ..

I changed my no to a yes..
My refusal to acceptance..
Broken in heart
Broken in Spirit..
Broken in body..

I gave a promise
To my lil one
For her life..
To..
Protect her..
Love her
Guide her..
Through life..
With God’s help..

From Broken to Joy
Was a long trail
The Lord supplied
All my needs..
Lead me through
Each valley..
And saved my
Child’s life…

Today.
I am not broken in spirit..
He restoreth My soul..
Made good His Promises
Put my feet on solid ground..
For He surely is..
My Rock
My Strength..
My Redeemer!!

He is my strength

There is not a day that I don't wake up... thankful that God has given me another day. I am amazed at the

Lord's kindness and forgiveness. I am amazed that in my darkest moments.. when all others walk away.. He

stands by me through the bottom.